Selina Rivera
Thursday, May 28, 2020
Today I got to pick up my yearbook and two t-shirts. Since I was in yearbook, I knew what most of it already looked like. I think it turned out good, but it feel that it kinda looks like last years.
A lot of yearbook are similar to the years before. I think for the year of 2021 they should change it up and go outside of the box. But I mean what do I know.
Well I’m pretty much graduated, so that must mean something. Time to became successful and hopefully not become a stay at home mom and waste my time going to college. Just think about all the money just to stay home.
I just want to be able to support myself.
Wednesday, May 27, 2020
Nothing exciting happened today. I went to Stoney Creek with some friends and that’s about it. Also there is only 2 days left of school and I couldn’t be happier.
I’m ready to be done. I believe that if you actually enjoyed high school that someday you will end up in a school again. Whether it’s a sports coach or a teacher.
At least that’s how most people end up. You either wan’t t comeback or you want to run far far away. There’s no in between.
I’m ready to move on.
Tuesday, May 26, 2020
I am exhausted. Yesterday took the wind out of me, from constantly moving and the sun wore me out. I’m not sure if that happens to everyone, but it sure does happen to me.
I also got to have a sleepover with my brothers girlfriend during the night. Sh has four kittens, so I got to play with them and watch them. It was a lot of fun!
Over all three years of her being around, that was the first sleepover we were able to have. I’m honestly happy that me and her got closer. I think that’s how all family should be.
Monday, May 25, 2020
Today I went to my friends house and she lives on a lake. I was finally able to become tan and maybe even a little burnt. The weather was really nice last weekend.
So many people were outside enjoying the warm sun on their face. I was included in that. I got to go tubing on the back end of a speedboat and I also paddle boarded.
It really was a perfect Memorial day. Everyone had a smile and just overall had a good time. That’s how Memorial day should be spent.
Thursday, May 21, 2020
Today I was able to get Krispy Kreme without having to wait hours. I got the same donuts as everyone else did and in only 10 minutes. Also I brought a dozen to my dads work and they all loved it.
All essential workers are tired, so I believe they all should be rewarded. Even if it’s something as small as donuts. I’m sure they’re all over their hour limit and barely have a break. I know my dad is.
With quarantine ending soon workers will be able to take a breath and others will return to take their place. The world will open again. It won’t be back to normal, but it will be close.
Hopefully a second wave of the virus doesn’t hit.
Wednesday, May 20, 2020
Never go to Krispy Kreme on a day where free donuts are served. I sat in a line for three hours, and then I gave up. In the end I got no donuts.
If I waited in line any longer I would’ve been there for two more hours. Many of my peers were turned away because they ran out. Imagine sitting in line for five or more hours for nothing.
I would be so mad. All that wasted time for nothing.
Tuesday, May 19, 2020
Well, today my legs were shown off to the world. I finally got to wear shorts. It was really warm outside, so me and my friends went to River bends.
Yes, we were following social distancing rules. On the other hand, no one else was. Everywhere you looked there was someone there.
With the pandemic I’ve never seen so many people outside at the same time. It truly is amazing to see. The earth I believe is resetting it’s self from all the pollution and trash.
Monday, May 18, 2020
I feel like so many people are watching Tiktok’s right now and are starting to create videos with their friends and family. Not going to lie, but I’ve even made many videos during quarantine. They’re so fun to make during your free time and also can keep you active.
The videos can range from fifteen seconds to sixty. On average most videos are watched for around ten to fifteen seconds. Unless it catches your interest.
You have to say relatable, have good lighting, and just overall be yourself. That’s the key of creating good content. Also, don’t over post. If you’re trying to become a bigger creator don’t post more than three videos a day.
Friday, May 15, 2020
The days keep going by faster and faster. In two weeks my high school years are over. No more homecoming, football games, comp days, and so much more.
Even though school is almost over the homework keeps coming. I plan on taking all the rainy days I can to get as much done as possible. Time is running out.
It honestly feels like a race to the finish line. I’m just one step in front of it. So close but yet so far away.
Its that moment when you need to take a break, but you know in your heart that you need to keep going. So, that’s what I’m going to do. I’m going to keep pushing.
Thursday, May 14, 2020
Today is my homework day. The sky is grey and full of rain which means I get to stay inside. It sucks because yesterday was so nice.
I will never understand why Michigan weather is so bipolar. One second It’s hot and sunny and the next day it will be snowing. Well, today It’s raining.
That’s why I’m using this weather as a chance to catch up and get things accomplished. I guess sometimes bad weather is necessarily not a bad thing. It sometimes makes me feel motivated to get things done.
Get things done as in finish building my Minecraft house.
Wednesday, May 13, 2020
I finally got to get outside and spend time with my friends. We went to River Bends park and I had a blast. It was really warm, but I can’t wait for next week.
It’s going to be close to 80. This is the time when I wish I had a swimming pool. My grandparents do, but it doesn’t open until June.
When I was at the park there were so many people. Everywhere you looked there was always someone there. The funny thing is that I never saw anyone with a mask or gloves on.
On nice days people tend to forget about the pandemic going on in the world. It’s as if nothing is happening, but honestly It’s nice to escape reality sometimes.
Tuesday, May 12, 2020
Today I got my cap and gown photos done for graduation. Honestly, none of this seems real. Graduation is virtual when all my life I’ve been working hard to walk across a stage.
At this point I give up. I’m going to do everything I can to graduate and then I’m moving on. I’m over this chapter, onto the next one.
Since freshman year I’ve been over high school. All the drama, rude staff, mean popular kids, and so much more. I’m done.
High school to me feels like a job. Not something enjoyable. I don’t look forward everyday to seeing faces that give me dirty look in the halls or hearing unnecessary drama out of a teenagers mouth.
Immaturity, that’s what it is.
Monday, May 11, 2020
The day after mothers day. I didn’t get a lot accomplished, but I did get to play with kittens. They’re adorable. It’s like holding a piece of paper. They’re so light.
Me and my brother are trying to keep one but my parents are saying no. Hopefully we can convince them because the one we want loves to cuddle.
He will climb on your shoulder and sleep against your neck. I’ve never experienced anything like it, but I’m not complaining. yesterday we brought him to the house, but we were nervous about what my dog would do.
I’m still not sure if he likes the kitten or not. I guess we’ll find out.
Friday, May 8, 2020
Today I plan on catching up on my homework. Also I find out how I did on the speech contest. I hope I did well.
Were not sure what graduation holds for us, but it will either be in person or online. Personally, I think online would not be fair to the graduates of 2020.
All our life we’ve been waiting to walk the stage and have the diploma given to us in our hands since we were young. Now, that might be taken away from us.
I understand that’s all we can do at the moment, but we still deserve a graduation ceremony. Not virtual. We all want everything to feel normal, and that would be the opposite.
To me it doesn’t matter how long it takes, but when this is all over I expect a graduation and prom.
Thursday, May 7, 2020
This morning I woke up early and waited to receive my cap and gown. They came around noon and in all honesty I had no clue who they were. I thought teachers were the ones dropping it off, but I have never seen these people in my life… weird.
Anyway, I also performed my speech to the principal and other staff members. Honestly I was nervous, but I think I did okay. All that matters is that I tried.
After I took a really long nap. It was needed. I felt so exhausted all day and I barely did anything. I feel like a lot of us feel that way lately.
I’m starting to get behind in school, not because I don’t want to do it, but because I don’t understand some assignments. Some teachers made it simple and easy to read while others not so much.
If this continues throughout my college years, I don’t know how I am going to make it.
Wednesday, May 6, 2020
Tomorrow I get to receive my cap and gown. I can’t believe my high school days are over. Honestly, I’m kinda happy about it.
I’m ready to move on with my life and take a step away from drama and immaturity. That’s basically high school. Well, for me anyway.
My high school experience wasn’t the best, but now it is great. At first I didn’t like online, but now it’s not so bad. Though it is hard when your computer can’t access some assignments, but it’s okay.
I will also perform my graduation speech to some staff members. I hope I get picked, but it will probably go to someone more known. That is just what happens.
Welcome to high school.
Tuesday, May 5, 2020
Well, it’s officially his birthday. One of the packages came in, so that’s a positive note. Also I fully gotten ready for the first time in months.
When I drove to his house there was no one on the road. It is a ghost town. It’s cray how things have changed.
When I got to his house his decorations were Corona themed. It really was a funny sight. We ate Mexican food, because of May 5.
Also there was cake and ice cream. Everything felt normal. We were able to see our friends and I could see the smile on everyone’s face.
Everyone was happy. It felt like a normal summer day. When everyone meets up near the beach and you share laughs and make memories.
Some days are starting to feel the same again.
Monday, May 4, 2020
I finally left my house. Me and my boyfriend went to New Baltimore and relaxed by the water. The water was so blue and there wasn’t single cloud in the sky.
It was really beautiful to see since I’ve been staring at the inside of my house for over a month. We also got ice cream to treat our selves after everything we’ve been through.
Also I found out that my mom’s god parents are doing better. They survived Corona. We all never lost hope and we knew they would pull through.
Tomorrow is my boyfriends birthday and I know it will be hard since he can’t see anyone but me. I have a surprise planned for him, so hopefully he will enjoy it.
Only a few of his gifts have came in since all shipping is backed up. I kinda have given up at this point. I’m ready for all of this to be over.
Friday, May 1, 2020
I can’t believe it’s already May. Time really has gone by fast in quarantine. We got out March 13 an now it’s May. Teachers are now grading and some are keeping it easy and some are not.
School is a lot harder online. Hopefully when I go to college everything will be normal again. As of right now some classes are online and some are in person, but you have to wear a mask and gloves.
A lot of people are saying that once everything goes back to normal more people will get sick because out immune systems are lowering everyday because we aren’t exposed to anything.
Thursday, April 30, 2020
Today I wen’t to Walmart to pick something up. I had gloves and a mask on. Seeing everybody so negative was hard to see and vision in my head.
It kinda reminded me of the movies when the lighting turns from yellow toned to blue or gray toned. Where everything feels empty and lost.
If you stepped towards people they quickly move. If you ask for help the workers are very rude. There’s markings on the floor where you need to stand in order to be six feet apart.
None of this feels real. It feels like were living in a virtual reality where everything is staged and we’re being studied on how we will react. Well, if anyone wants to know how I’m reacting, I am running out of things to do.
I’ve cleaned, played video games, helped out my parents, spent time with my dog, made ticktocks… I don’t know what to do anymore.
Wednesday, April 29, 2020
Me and my friend Chelsea painted the Utica rock today. It’s painted for the seniors because we got hit hard the most. We shared many laughs and even some serious conversations.
We saw some familiar faces and some not that familiar. Just being outside in sixty degree weather was really refreshing. When school let out it was cold, but now times have changed.
It’s now warm with average weather around fifty five degrees. Everyone is outside, and honestly I haven’t seen this many people outside in awhile. It’s nice to see everyone coming together as one.
Tuesday, April 28, 2020
Today I visited some family. Seeing their faces really made me happy. Being away from everyone is really hard because they are the people that make me happy. They always come first.
During the teen years a lot of kids forget their family. They think they’re terrible and they are holding them back. They actually want what’s best for them. At the time they may think they’re wrong, but they’re actually right.
Their friends may come first, but family will always be there until their death bed. Don’t miss out on memories just to go meet up with friends that could only last a few months.
They will eventually be filled with regret.
Monday, April 27, 2020
Today I started working on my graduation speech. All my life I’ve been consistently rejected by people and places I was passionate about. Others were chosen over me because they were higher ranked at school. They were known. Well, that’s high school.
A lot of people may say that high school is nothing like the movies but my life was just like that. I had the rumors, the toxic boyfriend, mean popular kids, cliques… I had it all. No body is really there to help. When you reach out to teachers or counselors some treat you like you’re nothing. That somehow you’re the problem.
So, for me quarantine is going great. No harsh stares from across the halls, teachers blaming you for things you haven’t done, and no worrying if someone will let you sit by them at lunch or decline you like a rotten piece of food.
I’m now focusing on myself and my future. I will do everything in my power to achieve where I want to be and I’m already on my way there.
Friday, April 24, 2020
Today I was able to get a lot of my homework done. Finally the weight is lifted off my shoulders with only a few assignments remaining. My mind is still running in circles, but hopefully everything will get done on time. Also I got to get outside and go on a walk to refresh my head. It was nice to get outside and feel the fresh air.
Thursday, April 23, 2020
One positive thing about quarantine is being able to spend time with family. My mom and I have been working on a puzzle for a few days now and it still isn’t completed. At this point we are doing everything we can to make time go by fast when things don’t need to get done.
Wednesday, April 22, 2020
Officially a week ago today was my birthday. It was hard to believe that I turned eighteen. Some family members stopped by to say hi and my parents tried to make it feel as normal as possible. Overall I enjoyed the time I spent with everybody, but I’m starting to miss my friends.
Tuesday, April 21, 2020
With all the homework coming my way it is hard to get everything done. Some classes give you one to two assignments while others give you five at one time. School used to be enjoyable and now it feels like a heavy weight on your back. Organization is key at this time.
Monday, April 20, 2020
Today officially starts the new quarter. A lot of kids and teachers are now stressing over work and providing everyone with what they need. Everyday slowly becomes harder because you feel like you’re loosing your mind. You forget what day it is and what time to go to sleep and wake up. Today’s normal is a whirl wind.
Friday, March 27, 2020
Today was actually a good day. I spent some time with my mom and brother. With most things shut down, families are getting closer and getting the bonding time they need again. Also the earth almost like resetting. There’s some positive during this negative time.
Thursday, March 26,2020
I found out someone I know tested positive for the virus. They only went to the grocery store and still conceived it. Everyone needs to listen and stay home. The virus is still spreading.
Wednesday, March 25, 2020
I finally got to go outside to Stoney Creek. There was so many people there, but everyone was being cautious. Overall, the weather was beautiful.
Tuesday, March 24, 2020
Today I stayed inside and got some things accomplished. I cleaned my room and some homework done as well. Hopefully after this crisis everything can go back to normal, whatever normal is.
Monday, March 23, 2020
My family had to cancel our trip to Cabo today. I’m a little bummed but we get to go in June now! I’m ready to get a tan.
Sunday, March 22, 2020
There are so many questions but only a few answers. No one knows what the future will hold. Hopefully positivity.
Saturday, March 21, 2020
I’m loosing track of the days now. Staying inside is driving me crazy and feel unmotivated.
Friday, March 20, 2020
Day 7 of being in quarantine and I spend my days sitting around on my couch. I did paint with my boyfriend, not so good but it got the job done. And again I stayed up late playing Minecraft. I need this virus to end so I can go to sleep!
Thursday, March 19, 2020
Today wasn’t so bad. I went to get an oil change at my old work and caught up with a few of my old coworkers. I was sad to hear that my work closed due to the virus but now I get to sleep in.
Wednesday , March 18, 2020
So today I actually decided to make a drastic change in my life. I got bangs. I’m not sure why, maybe the virus is making me become that typical high school teen that cuts her hair due to a traumatic event. I guess we will never find out. Also I’ve been spending my nights playing Minecraft, hopefully soon this virus will be figured out and I can prioritize my time again.